It's after losses like yesterday's that I question the degree of my fanaticism. I love this team and I love rooting for them, watching them win, going to games, etc. I like having a team that is mine, that I'm so invested in. I like that I only wear a Mets cap or a Mets t-shirt. I won't wear any other team's stuff. I like that people know I�m a Mets fan, I like that old girlfriends from high school who haven�t seen or spoken to me in 25 years, see a Mets score and wonder about me. I like that my kids are Mets fans, I like that I know a lot about the team, that there is an online forum devoted to the Mets where I can go and have dialogues with people who are as devoted as I am. But you know what I don�t like? I don�t like how I feel and act after a game like yesterday�s. That loss changed my mood from upbeat to pissed off really quickly. I was having a nice father-kids day and was in a good mood, joking with them and just enjoying the time. The Mets lose and - boom- I�m pissed. I get short with the kids, and I�m miserable the whole way home. Didn't want to talk to anyone about baseball the rest of the night - which was hard because I had a dinner to go last night and everybody that knows me, knows I'm a Mets fan and wanted to talk to me about the game. I don't want the team or the game to affect me in that way. Why can't I just enjoy the game for the game? Why can't I just 'turn it off' after a bad loss or a good win and move on to my real life? It truly bothers me and I don't like it at all. My kids should not have to walk on eggshells around me if Ayala blows a save. My wife should not have to watch TV by herself in the bedroom because I'm brooding in the basement over Luis Castillo's lack of range. I�m not breaking things or yelling at anybody but a baseball team losing a big game just should not get to me as much as it does. Sure you can't enjoy the highs as much if you don't experience the lows but the trade-off for me seems to be too high a price a pay. I can�t imagine that I�m alone in having these emotions, how do you guys deal with it?